Next?

So I havent written in a while-havent been on the computer too much-but I'm back for a short update...(here you go JJ)

I still have no idea what Im going to do and graduation is in a week and a half, holy moley. I really wish there was just one door that was clearly open and thats exactly what I would do-but as of now, there is not one.

I also have been contemplating the idea of marriage, a family unit and all those kinds of things lately with my besties getting married. Is what we "want" what we need? and if we got what we think we wanted would it be "ideal"? I mean clearly the issue of timing is a significant factor-but over the years timing has changed and now what was the norm 100 years ago is outdated and has been remodeled to what is now considered the norm.

There is a lot on my mind, and obviously I'm having a hard to putting it on paper-ha.

If I am actively pursuing Christ, then in turn what needs to happen will easily fall into place-how much easier would life be if obedience was first nature?

Summer is almost over-next chapter=?

until then...

DONE!

 So I finished all my exams yesterday but was concerned that one of my grades was not going to be what I needed. Well I just got my grade and I made one question over what was required to finish!!! God is good, all the time!!! So I am officially done with college, all I have left is graduation! I still have no idea what I am going to do-but thats ok, because the Lord hasn't forgotten about me-he knows I'm here and I'm patiently awaiting my next assignment. 

It feels amazing to have that weight lifted off of me. No, I am not sad yet, have barely had time to breathe-much less feel sad about it. I am excited about whatever is coming next. Obviously I have some job to do here, or I wouldn't have moved home. We shall see what I am needed for. 

So this is a message of encouragement-you can do it!!a

Off to Destin tomorrow with my mom and sister, boy do I need a vacation. I am soo thrilled to get to leisurely read (which I havent done in a year), lay out on the beach, have some QT with Mom and Moriah. I have really missed camp, last year on this exact day I was finished with my session. Feels like forever feels like yesterday-weird how time does that?! 

Until then :)

Last Day Eve!!!

So tomorrow is my last day of college class, last night of studying, and whatt I'm almost done!!! I am so excited I don't even know what to do with myself, but still have no plan. YIKES. Sorry nothing funny or though provoking today-my brain is currently overrun with school studies. I will return when I have something more interesting or entertaining to discuss! Hollller class of 2009!!!

until then :)

"ideal"-vs-ideal

supposed to be studying for finance test tomorrow-but i will in juusttt a seconnd

sometimes when i think about situations where I had an "ideal" way and it didnt happen, i am grateful because the other way worked out so much better. i mean i think its good to have goals and standards, but being flexible is good too. 

heres my recent example- if you ask me things that really bother me about other people i would say the top rated ones would be: high maintenance, needy, possessive/jealous, and people who dont allow me to have the space i need. but here's where the kink is thrown in, my dog Dooley, my best friend, who i probably spend more time with than anyone else is not what i would "ideally" choose for me. since he thinks he's a person i'll give you a profile view of him: he is very protective/possessive/jealous, he's very high maintenance from bathing and haircuts to the food he can and can not eat, he definitely doesn't give me space. when i go to sleep he will try everything in his power to get on my pillow, sleep on my face and put atleast one arm/leg on me. like the ultimate spoon. i am not a toucher when im sleeping, i need space, i get hot, and i surely dont want him snoring on my face. although i make him move, it makes me feel good that he wants to be with me. but honestly i do not know what i would have done, the last year especially, without him. may sound silly to you, but maybe you need a dog.

so i guess it goes to show us that we dont always know what is best for ourselves, and when we start to get disappointed-remember, some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers.

until then :)

Did I strike the rock?

::Thinking about the playlist Im going to make my dad for fathers day::

listening to Amos Lee...mmm

       Home is where the heart is.....i know where home is, but I dont know where my heart is. Like Moses sometimes I feel like I am wandering in the desert-are there ever times when you wish you had a cloud to follow by day and a pillar of fire by night? I know I do. If there is ANYTHING I have learned in college about myself-its that I am a visual learner. I need to read it, write it, do it, see it. The lecturers with no visual aids or powerpoint slide-just go ahead and count me out-its not going to happen. So that cloud and fire (for life) sure would be handy right now...

short today, im sleepy and all i have rolling around in my head is financial statement. thank you summer school. until then :)

ok ok back for more

ok so I just caught up with the inspirational blogger and now i have to add some "interesting facts" thank you samone..

Where I would like to visit:

1-Hawaii--again

2-any where in South America, for a mission trip

3-Costa Rica!!

4-one of the Carolinas

5-Israel

Things I would like to do:

a. skydive

b. do the canopy tours in Costa Rica

c. become fluent in Spanish

d. travel to an Asian county, and maybe bring a baby home

e. cut my hair short

My favorite articles of clothing:

i. running shorts

ii. chacos

iii. asic runners

iv. summer dresses

v. wedge sandals

vi. side ponytails

vii. columbia fleece

viii. dresses and tights

ix. simple t's (that dont match)

x. random patterned socks that have never been mated

Things I don't leave the house without:

~blackberry

~camera

~wallet

~keys

~bs meter

~lip stuff (gloss or chapstick)

If I attempted to name all my scars, they would start charging me or something, but I can name a few good ones if you like:

-KNEES- have been massacred from falling off my bike in the younger years, basketball, volleyball, rollerblading, and various other incidents

-nose- in the middle of my nose, when I was like 4 or 5 I was doing that thing where you spin around til you get dizzy, and I ran into a counter at a bingo parlor with my grandparents..sweet dude, should have gotten stitches...

-small incision scar on my right knee from when I had knee surgery in 8th grade

-various scratches on my hands from God knows what

other injuries::

1. broken middle finger on my right hand that my dad said was "jammed" needless to say he was wrong and my finger is well..less than perfect...oh and the pinky finger on that hand too

2. broken nose senior year in basketball

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Oh and to top it off I have Type 1 Diabetes-no its not hereditary or going away, I will always be on insulin (my pumpernickel) until someone finds a cure, and it's not as bad as you're thinking-just takes some adjusting.

What else...

I absolutely love my dog Dooley. He's very picky/not that friendly sometimes, but thats ok-I figure he's a good judge of character (most of the time). 

Maybe old fashioned, but I'm a big mailer, if you give me your address I will totally send you something-maybe a card, mixed CD, or something random to make your week better. It's the little things that go a long way..

My two biggest pet peeves are probably laziness and people who are inconsiderate. 

I would pick summer over any other season, because the sun is wonderful and summer activities are wonderful. :) Also, I really dont like to have to layer clothes or wear pants.

I need to work on being a little more spontaneous, because I write EVERYTHING in my planner. It's good to not always be on a schedule.

ok ok, i think im done now..haha..

Why Am I Doing This?

Well the other day I read a friends blog and found it quite entertaining, so I thought why not me? haha..we'll see if mine is as good as hers. Since everything in my life is changing, I figured why not start blogging because that's also something I have never done. 

So here we go----I am Bethany Joy Mathews, a senior management major at Texas A&M graduating in August. I have no idea what I'm doing next..yikes! A little background: I have the best dog ever, from a big fun family, have a wide variety of friends, love outside, rely on my pumpernickel, and LOVE Jesus. 

Lately it feels like everything is changing-oh thats because it is. Two of my best friends were married within three weeks of each other within the last month, I'm about to graduate and move back home, and everyone thinks Im about to be a grown up? Weirdd....I don't like to do what is "expected" but don't want to be a disappointment, where is the balance? Seeking out the Lord's will is a challenge but rewarding.

I haven't dated in a good while, and that's ok. I mean whoever I date will have to be some kinda man because I'm a.. a.. challenge?! haha. I dont mind going with the flow-but I have an opinion, I like to have fun-but I'm not a partier, I love outdoor activities and enjoy friendly competition. 

So here it is, my first blog...who knows when I'll be back...until then :)